I can’t. Jan 12, 2019 2:56:21 GMT via mobile
Post by koopatroopa on Jan 12, 2019 2:56:21 GMT
I’m pretty sure everyone who knows me has noticed I have been very inactive recently, I randomly go offline for several weeks and then come back for like 30 minutes and then go inactive again. That’s just because I’ve been very stressed out recently and during most of October/ September I was constantly telling myself that I was stupid and was nothing compared to my friends, sometimes I would even get suicidal thoughts. I haven’t told anyone who I know about this and I find it better to tell people who I don’t know too much about about this because I believe people on the server are nicer to me then my irl friends. During winter break it didn’t help because I had to spend some of it doing extra credit, which added to stress as I would have my phone taken away if I didn’t do well enough on it, which is fine and I understand but it did add to the stress. I have been feeling a bit better though, even though a few days ago a student said he would snap my arms in half (idiot) and a kid straight up harassing me and randomly stealing my stuff, and I he called me something so foul behind my back that my friend refused to repay it in front of me. I also just want to say, both those happened in front of teachers who just kinda let it happen and called me out for trying to take my stuff back, or me telling them to shut up. I’ve tried not to let my negative attidude about this get on the server, but that also means barely talking in chat on the rare times that I am on, when I’m not I’m either feeling unmotivated in the other games I play, or just bored and watching YouTube. I’m probably barely going to play anymore, so I’m sorry if I’m inactive for a while, I rlly don’t know how to end this other then saying sorry for how inactive I’ve been, but I don’t what to get on the server, say a ton of stupid crap and then lose everything because of it. I still feel like I’m a bad person, I’m not very nice to my friends, I am super self conscious about every thing I do and when I’m not I say something stupid. I’m hoping this will get a bit better after school but I really don’t know. I try to stay cheerful and honestly am a lot but sometimes I’ll just feel so awful about what I am, a immature, dumbass, lying 12 year old.